How is it possible to be one of the busiest people on the planet and yet one of the loneliest at times. I have experienced this feeling so many times. The people around me never knowing that I was desperate for a little of their time, not the kind that just comes from a quick conversation of just a few minutes of their day; but that time that soaks down into your heart and makes you feel full and complete and loved. Through no fault of their own, for they are simply living life; they have not taken the time to look closely enough to see the longing in my eye, the need of my heart.
On the outside I appear fine, but on the inside I ache, yet it is especially in these times that once I switch my focus from them filling this need I feel my Heavenly Father move ever closer to me, I can almost feel his breath on my brow and his kiss against my forehead reminding me I am never alone and he will listen to every word or hushed whisper that leaves my lips. So, I start talking, leaning in to feel his tenderness and my heart starts filling full again and my loneliness takes a back seat and I am being recharged in my spirit.
The words of scripture start flooding my mind and soul, I start meditating on all he has done and all he has brought me through. I once again recall that moment when he reached down and chose me as his child. I am consumed with his love pouring into me and I feel encouraged and that peace that passes understanding winding its way through my heart and blood vessels and the loneliness just dissipates; I am at that moment full of overflowing, almost dancing in the realization that I am his child, he loved me with a love that cost a life, his!
When I am laser focused on myself I cannot hear that still small voice inside of me wanting me to hear and lean in. My Father in heaven wants to have fellowship with me; so he arranges the times of isolation so that my heart and mind are turned unhindered to him. I too often see this isolation as it were as some sort of punishment or even go as far as to say, ” those I long to talk with, be with must not love and value me”. People are people and they too experience these same feelings, each of us believing the lies the enemy speaks to us, when we are self- focused and not God-focused! How special he must think I am to want my time, my words, yes even my laughter. When we fully surrender our attention and time to our Father in Heaven he refills us. He brings a settled peace that does not need others or stuff to fill. He is enough!
When the right time comes and you are full of him, he will usher in fellowship from other places and people and you are given the opportunity to share all that He has done, you can be a light to someone else in need.
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them, Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son.
John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son.
These two verses alone should cause our hearts to beat a little faster!