I was on Vacation and riding on a Ferry Boat when the story about Jesus walking on water came to my mind.
As I sit in my car on a ferry boat looking out at the choppy waters my mind wonders to the story in Matthew where Jesus walks and the water. I am asking myself the question: If I saw Jesus walking on the water would I have enough faith to step out of the boat and start walking to him? Peter had enough faith to get him out of the boat, but when he felt the waves and wind about him, something happened, fear took over and faith went by the wayside. Peter wanted to keep the faith, but without the security of the boat beneath him he doubted.
( Matthew,15:24-33 )
24 Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen, and they were fighting heavy waves. 25 About three o’clock in the morning[a] Jesus came toward them, walking on the water. 26 When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified. In their fear, they cried out, “It’s a ghost!”
27 But Jesus spoke to them at once. “Don’t be afraid,” he said. “Take courage. I am here!”
28 Then Peter called to him, “Lord, if it’s really you, tell me to come to you, walking on the water.”
29 “Yes, come,” Jesus said.
So, Peter went over the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the strong wind and the waves, he was terrified and began to sink. “Save me, Lord!” he shouted.
31 Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. “You have so little faith,” Jesus said. “Why did you doubt me?”
32 When they climbed back into the boat, the wind stopped. 33 Then the disciples worshiped him. “You really are the Son of God!” they exclaimed.
I think any Christian would tell you they have at least the faith the size of a mustard seed. It is when we are in the storm-tossed seas of life that we find out whether that is true or not. So often when a trial starts out we have strong faith, we are certain that God will hold us tightly. As we walk out into the deep he will keep us afloat, but a lot of the time our faith starts weakening and we become afraid and we are no longer sure that God is able to keep us afloat. And we here our Lord asking us the same question that he asked Peter, “Why did you doubt me?”
I think we doubt for many reasons, maybe the greatest being we are still seeing God through the eyes of a man and we think that he is like we are, we are very limited in our abilities. Human and frail in many ways we cannot carry anyone else, just ourselves. When we try to carry not only our burdens and others many times we break under the pressures of it. But God is God, Nothing is too hard for God. Luke 1:37 “For with God nothing shall be impossible.” Do we really believe this?
When we walk through storm-tossed seas we tend to focus on the sea rather than what is ahead of us, or who is ahead of us. If we could simply keep our eyes focused on Jesus and remember how faithful he has been in times past, maybe just maybe our faith would stay a little stronger. God is always with us, watching each step we take waiting to catch us lest we fall and even if we do fall it is into loving hands.
I take comfort in knowing that God formed me; he alone knows my frame, my mind, and my heart. He knows just how much faith I have and he calls me out ever deeper to walk on the water with him. Each time a storm comes and I get through it I find my faith stronger & my walk less fearful. I remember how God called me to the deep and held me.